Still confused.

I haven't really made any progress in the job search area.  I've been thinking a lot about what I want, what I'm good at and what the possibilities are.  I've also been praying and asking for guidance.  That last bit requires patience.  You know how it is with God (or perhaps you don't). God has a much better grasp of the big picture than most of us, certainly better than I.  Often, hindsight reveals that there was a lovely path to a lovely destination, but I kept getting distracted by moderately satisfactory possiblities.  People have told me over and over that I'm too picky.  They said that about my inability to find a proper husband, until Brian showed up. Of course, I didn't even meet him until I was 35 years old.  It seemed like I WAS being too picky or something.  

I feel quite stuck about the job.  I really want to do the right thing.  The question is this: Does God have a particular job in mind?  Does he just want me to do my best wherever I am? Am I incredibly selfish and picky?  I know that I am incredibly fortunate, blessed, lucky.  I don't have to work, at least not to earn money, but I enjoy working and went to school for a long time.  I hate to lose those skills. But, most of the jobs I find are not here.  Some are within 40 miles, but are very demanding.  

So, I have decided to take a leave of absence from the Lupus Foundation for the summer and maybe forever.  Don't know what the future holds. Wait and see.